Anyway, so this one has been bothering me ALL DAY!
This morning I threw up all over my family. Yep! Right before I got ready for church...and then I went into my bathroom, turned the shower on and bawled like a baby!
It was just disgusting....I have been so busy, overwhelmed with studying- preparing for a huge testing day, working out, trying to start a new business, running our home which had been infected with sickness, doing taxes, AND the regular stuff....I didn't even realize HOW stressed I had become..... Then, it happened. My power steering pump went out and I realized I had to wait to get it fixed because I didn't have the cash for it. It started me down a trail of negative thoughts....how my wedding ring is still busted, I need a battery and charging cord for my laptop, my grandma's table isn't finished, I keep waiting to get my Siri iphone4s....waiting....WAITING AND WAITING!!! And has anyone other than me noticed how messy the house had gotten in the past couple days?? OH MY GOSH! Look- the trash is overflowing AGAIN! Can't someone ELSE take it out of the container and put it in the garage????!!!!
I threw up with words ALL. OVER. THEM.
And IT. FELT. AWFUL.
Like I said, I then went to shower (bawling like a baby) to get ready for church- which I KNEW I NEEDED. Clearly, I was allowing myself to be swallowed in the sinking sand of negativity and thinking about ME. ME. ME.
Enter RUSH HOUR- Where kids bring their parents to learn! (Our family worship service. Of which, I am now in a leadership role as a Crew Leader.) And, yes..... I heard the message LOUD AND CLEAR!
Honor others- put others needs above your own. NOTHING like what I was doing just a half hour earlier....but, I was realizing BIG TIME- that was exactly what I NEEDED TO DO! FOCUS ON OTHERS!! It isn't about me. Life is so much better when we look outward for the good of others!
I am focussed again. A plan is on the rise- a plan of encouraging those in my life and focussing on the positives... So, if we are friends on facebook....if I am involved in your life at all- THAT IS MY MISSION. Instead of throwing up all over the people I care about- I intend to BRIGHTEN their day.
(A friend of mine wrote about throwing up on her husband a couple years ago with her words and that analogy has stood in my head. It is SO true! And, throw up is DISGUSTING!)
