I blog to work through things in my mind. I blog to get a message out. I blog as a way of venting. I blog to share sometimes in hopes that it helps someone else.....
Today I am working through things in my mind.
I have been on Facebook since 2009, I believe. I didn't really want to join, but I had some friends telling me I really needed for several months and so, I decided to at least give it a go! Fast forward about 3 years and some 1,300 friends later.....
Getting on Facebook was just starting to frustrate me. I mean, I could see into the lives of so many. I could look at endless pictures, read people's jokes, frustrations, accomplishments, let downs, see their foods and get hungry.... But in the midst of this, while I also tried to share my own, I felt a block. Something that just wasn't as satisfying and meaningful as the relationships I had with these people in the real world outside of Facebook.
Maybe it is because we are nearing the Holidays. Maybe it's because the novelty finally wore off for me..... Maybe it's because I am so relational.... but I am at a place where I just had more frustrations about Facebook than anything, really.
I only deactivated my account Monday. Today is Thursday. But, I have felt a peace I haven't felt in a long time. I have a world of people who's voices I can actually hear, and some of them, I can touch and sit with and talk to. I think I need this time to have relationships in "real time" right now. I need more than words, typed....still pictures to look at.
My preference is old school. Getting together with actual people. Phone conversations and for those I am really close to and wish to see but can't- there are web-cams, Face Time and Skype and they are so much better than still pics!
Also, I am no longer waking up and wanting to check Facebook and see what I have missed. I am waking up and spending time with those I love. I also have more time than before. I am getting another work out in each day. I am taking an online class and going at a really good pace.
I am also not feeling as sad that I cannot be with the people I see and miss on Facebook because I am not getting the fact that we aren't together shoved in my face anymore on a daily basis.
So, for me, right now, this has been a good move. I do miss the ability I had to promote my fitness classes and keep people up to speed about a Missions Trip my daughters and I will be taking. I also miss putting pictures and info up for our High School basketball team.... but then I realize, I am giving others the ability to take a turn doing it!
It's funny, too. As many "friends" as I have on there, and as often as I would post, I have only had a handful ask where I am- why I am not posting..... just another thing pointing to the fact that Facebook is really superficial. Just another thing pointing to the fact that the REAL relationships I share with people are the ones that are much more than Facebook. The relationships with the people in my life who want to be there- who make an effort and who care how my life is and show interest through actual conversations are the ones I want to spend my time on and focus on.
I like to do more than skim the surface with people. I like to know and be known. To love and be loved. .....
So not a Superficial Girl!
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